Sunday 26 May 2019
Friday 17 May 2019
Kindness is Free
KINDNESS IS FREE.
Monday 13 May 2019
Selawat Tafrijiyyah
Assalammualaikum everyone!
So here, Selawat Tafrijiyyah. Umi told me about this selawat. She asked me to recite it daily and she told me that she faced a lot of changes with the help of Allah and Selawat Tafrijiyyah. Whenever I got problem, she always and always told me to recite this selawat tafrijiyyah. Let's try make a small change by istiqamah (consistently) recite this daily. Insha aallah, may Allah help us in consistently remember Him by recite His words.
Wassalam
Saturday 11 May 2019
Test that keep on repeating
Assalammualaikum everyone!
I don't really know myself I think. Last night, someone made me realize that my problems always keep on repeating. And when I heard that, I started to think. Why I always have this never ending test (problems) that keep on repeating, what is the cause of this and how can I stop this. People never can understand you until they faced is by their own. Honestly, I've been sitting in this world of never ending test which keep on repeating since I was in high school. Hmm, I don't make stories and I don't tell people lie. If I said so, people won't believe me. I never can stop blaming myself for all those problems that keep on repeating. If only I have power, I could just terminate all those bad memories and there will not be a repeating problems. If only I knew how to overcome this, I could started doing it since high school.
But why is it still happening till now?
Because I don't have power and I don't know what is the way, and which is the way to overcome this repeating problems.
Those repeating problems are related to;
- FRIENDS
- FAMILY
- TEACHERS
- PARTNER
Whenever and whoever I'm with, I will always have problems with them. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's their fault. But the worst was my mind. I always and always OVERTHINKING.
That's what they told me.
I always OVERTHINKING.
Can I know how to stop being an overthinking girl?
Can anyone help me to overcome this?
How can I stop all those problems?
If I couldn't stop this problems from repeating, is there anyone that are still supporting me?
Is there anyone that will be there when I'm at my worst?
What if I never can stop it?
What if this is my real character?
I don't really know myself. I am too afraid of losing people that I loved again. I know, my attitude, my problems, keep on pushing others away. My past was even worst. I hate my past and I don't want to let myself be in those place again.
I'm so shocked to hear that people that I loved, tired of hearing my repeating problems. IF ONLY I KNEW HOW TO END IT (the repeating problems), I would probably END IT NOW.
I just don't know how. I lose hope on myself. I don't know who I am. Based on what they said, I can conclude that I am not a good person, a person that never can have happiness in life and always have problems with whoever I'm with. I am a problem maker. I am the worst human being. I am the most negative person that they ever met. I always tell people that I am a bad person. Never ever feel that I can be a good person.
Maybe Allah let me alive in this dunya to help others, to make others happy. I don't deserved happiness in this dunya. I never deserved. Will forever never deserved happiness.
I would sacrifice a lot of things to please people, to make people stay with me, to make people happy staying besides me, but that doesn't ensure their presence during my worst.
At the end, I always be the saddest person indeed.
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"How to determine what are the reason behind those repeating test (problems) that Allah gave to me?"
Whoever facing a problem, there's a good for them because everytime they being patience (sabr) in facing their test, Allah lift their rank and it also can be that Allah forgive all their sins.
In one of the Hadith stated that; the greatest of these is that which is revealed to the prophets, because they are the noblest of creatures, the greater the test. Every human was simplified to him in accordance with what was destined to him
May Allah grant us sabr in whatever test that He gave.
Wassalam.
TIRED
Assalammualaikum everyone!
We are human being. We have emotions, we have feelings.
We are weak and the weakest in this dunya.
Why do I said so?
Because Allah is the greatest and the most powerful in this dunya and akhirah.
We have nothing. He created us. He never feel tired of us and He don't have those character.
BUT
We can be tired, we always tired, and forever be tired of everything that we faced in this dunya.
A question once crossed my mind;
Can a human be tired of listening to others problems?
As in someone share a problem to you, and you feel tired of hearing it.
Is it because of the differences in patience level or is it just a human nature?
Have you guys ever think of this, because this thing seems quite tricky and really make me confused.
One of my friend told me that;
It depends on the individual itself. Not everyone feel tired of listening someone's problem. Different people have different level of patience.
"Is it depends on the differences in patience level or is it just a human nature?"
Patience (sabr)
May Allah increase our Imaan, increase our patience level in order to be a good muslim.
Wassalam.
Is it wrong to pray for this?
Assalammualaikum and good morning!
So today is our 7th day of Ramadhan, alhamdulillah Allah still grant us alive to continue praying in this precious month.
I'm not in a good mood last night, when everything doesn't go well. And yeah suddenly, my mind started to think of something that I've been longing and been praying since the day where Allah had taken someone that He loved (my dad).
I started to questioned to myself whenever I feel sad, whenever I cried because of the problems that never end and never can be solved (stress mode);
"I pray to meet my dad in my dreams ya Allah, I need his advises, if not, at least I can see his face because I've been missing him so much, ya Allah. I couldn't bare this problems alone"
I asked one of my friend;
"Is it wrong that I pray to meet someone who is already died?"
Then my friend told me;
"No, it's not wrong"
Our Prophet Muhammad SAW said;
"Whoever sees me is one good news"
In conclusion, it is not wrong to pray for meeting someone who is already died. We are free to pray for anything AS LONG AS IT IS NOT CONTRADICTS WITH SYARAK.
May Allah grant us with a good ending, insha aallah.
Wassalam.
Tuesday 7 May 2019
Sunday 5 May 2019
Ramadhan Kareem 2019
Assalammualaaikum everyone!!!
Alhamdulillah, today is our first day of Ramadhan. May our fasting month is better than the previous. I know everyone always wish for this, because we never know when is our death is coming right. The Ajjal is not in our hands, if its only in our hands, we will not work or prepare anything to face akhirah. And I can say that its not fair. Even our prophet who doesn't have any sins burden on him (maksum), still he feel the need of preparation to face akhirah. And I really hope, that this is not our last ramadhan. I feel very sinful. Hmm, when I look back at my prayers, my daily life, like when and how many times do I remember Allah and recite Al-Quran. Hmm, ya Allah, sometimes I feel I don't deserved to be in this dunya because I just don't know how to handle myself. Its okay, for now, I just need to believe in myself that I know I can handle myself and never stop learning to encourage myself to do goods while Im still breathing. Thank you Allah for letting me to feel the oxygen, the happiness to be around people that I love. May our Ramadhan will be the best month and the phase where we be a better person 💕
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